Sunday, 13 May 2007

And then there was one...

...feeding left. I have mixed feelings about the end of nursing. I feel like I should break down and cry, but feel kind of numb right now. Don't know. I guess I'm also relieved in some ways. Then again, breastfeeding is so uncomplicated. You don't need to worry if she's had her 16-24 ounces of milk or the way, she isn't taking much milk from a cup.

I thought about it a lot and although I'm not ready, it's time. Does that make sense?
Suzanne started crawling today, just another sign that my little baby is growing up quickly. She's not even one yet, but I'm already imagining her moving away from me (to a different country like her mother did?), becoming independent and losing this special bond we've had this past year.

I love my little girl so very much...

Happy mother's day to all you American mothers. French mother's day isn't for another few weeks so I haven't celebrated yet.


Deb said...

I can only imagine what you are going through emotionally. I understand that it's a hard bond to break.

Although I am hardly one to give advice on breastfeeding (since I was only able to do it such a short time myself), if she is willing (and really wants) to take at least 1 feeding a day, can you just do that? Would you have enough milk for a 1x a day feeding? This way, you both can still enjoy that special time together.

Or, you could just really make the decision to shut the boob factory down for good. As hard as that may seem, it's going to have to happen at some point anyway.

Either way, think of what's best for you and Suzanne. Hang in there hon!

P.S. Happy Mother's Day to you too! You're right, we're lucky to be able to celebrate it twice a year! ;o)

Deb said...

Oh, and congrats on her crawling!

I also think about my little one growing up and deciding to move away or out of the country. Scary thought!

Pardon My French said...

Weaning seems so far away as we've just really gotten the hang of feedings (thanks to LLL), but I can see how it would be hard for the mom. I'm sure there is an instinct for when 'it's time,' though. Good luck!

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